Fear of Remembering

I'm more terrified of you than anything else in this world
And I can't remember why
I remember the verbal and mental torment
But I know you did that to keep me too terrified from speaking out
Too terrified to remember anything else

I was an adult when I left my country, my home, my job
Everything I own, my family and my friends
You tried to find me, you wouldn't give up
You had your friends or whoever you hired to trick her
Into giving up the information of where I was hiding

She stood up to you for me and only then you stopped trying to find me
You knew she had a gift of knowing things that no other could know
You are scared of her, you think she might know what I can't remember
Why couldn't you just leave me alone to live my life
I despise you for who you are and what you did

©2006